Joyfully Attempting Life

My sophmore book has been titled Joyfully Attempting Life. I love the title. Joy is my life goal. Joy encompasses so much. Joy is rooted in faith and peace. Joy springs up out of love. Joy is salvation. Joy is huge. Joy is not dependent upon current situations. Joy is a gift from God. I choose to accept the gift.

Why Attempting Life? In one way I get it I am living life, but I chose attempting because everyday my goal is to sin less and love better. I am attempting to live that out. There are days I totally fail and fall flat on my face (metaphorically and really). Through Christ I am able to get up and try again.

I am Joyfully Attempting Life. Joyfully After All was hard to publish. To read through my journals and experience that segment of my story again was rough. It was cathartic too. I published because in 2002 there were no good first hand accounts of how a Christian dealt with rape. I am a reader. Connecting to characters is what I do. When I most needed someone there was a void. That void needed to be filled so I wrote my story.

Joyfully Attempting Life is a continuation. Unfortunately I hit another crazy, traumatic and upside down patch of life. I dealt with it the best way I know how, I wrote. I wrote a book. 5 years in the making.

I still have my ups and downs. I still grieve for my ex and what could have been. In JAL I don't meet Prince Charming. My happily ever after will be in Heaven. I think though that I am in a fairly good place right now. I have found an ending for Joyfully Attempting Life. You will have to read the book!

I am excited to see where God takes Joy 1 & Joy 2. It has been quite the journey, but I have been blessed to know Jesus through it all.

my daughter made this button heart and framed it for me to help me feel better as I battle the flu. To be so loved is a gift. Brings joy to my heart.

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