These Lazy Summer Days

Oh summer. You bring us the heat of Hell, hamburgers sizzling on the grill, kids splashing in sprinklers, the woderful aroma of sunscreen, tents in the backyard, cars loaded for cross country trips and ice cream melting down the cone.

Summer also brings so much more. Lazy days that stretch on forever. Twilight taking her time to arrive and the slowly growing fruits and veggies in the garden.

I am not a fan of heat. I melt in 70°F weather. I thrive in Winter. The chillier the better. Still, I am learning to embrace with joy all that summer brings.

I love evenings in the hammock with my Snowflake, watching her play with her water balloons or going for evenings walks around the 'hood.

Lazy summer days are not so bad. It's only taken me 30+ years to reach this monumental conclusion!

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