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The Blessing in the Mess

This photo sums up my life right now.  Messy and blessed.  This is my Snowflake's version of a clean room. "Mommy all my snuggle buddies are near each other. Like with like Mommy."

In my eyes this room is the scene of a category 2 hurricane. The bed is a disaster, the animals escaped their pen, the rug has been displaced, and on and on!  I could not function in there.

Somehow my precious child can go into that disaster zone and her imagination takes over and she has fun!

So even in this mess I see blessings. This picture is in our home. We have a cozy in the wind and rain home.  We have beds and blankets, closets full of clothes. We have: toys, books, games, puzzles, movies and a plethora of things.  So much so that I have been purging lately. Our pantry and fridge are full.

I don't take any of this for granted.  It can all be gone in the blink of an eye.  Fire, tornado, flood, robbery, you name it. Disasters can happen.

Joy comes when we realize that it isn't stuff that matters it is people and relationships.  It is the memories attached to the stuff.  It is family and friends.  It is a quiet moment with the people you treasure.  It is an hour in prayer just talking with God.

So, her room is a mess. I learned to value cleanliness and order and so will Snowflake in time. For now I enjoy what this picture represents- my daughter.

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