A Reminder From Snowflake

This morning as I dropped my daughter off at school she walked into her classroom and her face lit up with joy! Her former student teacher was there to sub. Snowflake loves her regular teacher, but seeing this other gal come back made her day.

I have been pondering her reaction. This is a hard time of the year for me. The anniversary of my wedding (marriage lasted for just the blink of an eye), the anniversary of my Grandma's entrance to Heaven and now another loved family member has passed to Heaven and I am still trying to celebrate and enjoy Advent while giving my daughter precious memories. So many different emotions at war with each other.

Snowflake's joy this morning was a wake-up call. It was a gift for her to have this teacher back for the day. Snowflake was going to enjoy it.

Do I make the most of the little gifts God sends me each day? Do I fully enjoy them, or do I ignore them and focus on the pain? I need to be more mindful so I am open and am able to notice each gift God gives me and enjoy it.

My loved ones in Heaven are celebrating. As we down here are weeping they are making their way to the THRONE and seeing JESUS! It is good to weep and mourn but it is also ok to pause and enjoy the smiles God gives us.

Ecclesiastes chapter 3 reminds us that there is a season/ time for everything. A time to laugh and a time to cry. A time to dance and a time to lay prostrate. Sometimes those times overlap. If so, choose to smile and dance.

Thank you Snowflake for reminding Mommy of the importance of being happy for all the surprises God gives us.

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